Saturday, March 20, 2004

Just here

It's just after 1:00 in the morning here and I'm still wide awake. I know I need to get some sleep but I really don't want to. I write poetry. I've been doing this since school. Yes, it's been a while. Anyway, I was looking for my notebook today and can't find it anywhere. I've got stuff dating back to 1979. That's a lot of memories to loose. I know they have to be here somewhere, I just don't know where.

I'm just in one of those moods. Not really sad, not really happy. Just here. I would understand it more if I had more to be upset about. While my life may not be perfect, I have it better than some and not as good as others. I usually try to be happy but sometimes I get in these moods and can't seem to get out of them. I guess I just want to be alone for a little while and the only time that seems to happen is when everyone else is asleep. It's nice having a quite house. But I also like hearing the boys run around making noise. It lets me know they are safe and healthy. Does that make sense to anyone? I don't know what is wrong with me right now. I do know I'll get over it. I always do. I go through this phase sometimes but it doesn't last long. More than likely, when I wake up, I'll be back to my usual happy self.

Anyway, about the site. I'm still trying to find some items to add to the auction page. You can go there and see what I have so far. Who knows, you just may want to bid on something there. If you do, just let me know.

I'm going to try to get some sleep now. I hope everything is well with you.

May God's blessings be with you always.

Thursday, March 18, 2004

What do I write about today?

There is not much happening with the program. But that is not unusually. My busiest times are around the last part and the first part of the months. I guess I could do a few months in advance, but I like to do it when it's needed. That way, I can put myself in the mood of what I want to do. I can see the picture I want to do if I wait til then. That may not make a lot of sense to some people but that is the way I work. It's fun doing it that way. Then I print everything out and sometimes sign the pages, it depends on what I am sending. This is really a fun program. I know the children like it even though I never see their faces as they receive them. But as I've stated before, that isn't why I started this. I don't need anyone to say thanks for these pages. Why thank someone for common courtesy? Why insist on getting a thank you just for being nice? Anyway, I just wanted to say hello. I hope you have a great day today.

God's blessings to everyone.

Tuesday, March 16, 2004

Isn't Amazing...

We went and saw "The Passion" Thursday night. It was a great movie. If you haven't seen it, then let me recommend it. I've talked to several people about it and so far no one has gotten the same message from it. Don't get me wrong, everyone agrees that it is well worth the price of admission. I just seems that everyone takes something different from it. While there was some guilt on my part, my main feelings were of amazement. It's hard to imagine that Christ went through that much torture willingly. He knew what He would be going through yet He did so anyway. Why? Because of us. It's hard to believe that this man knew about us even while He was hanging from the cross.

I had never realized exactly He had gone through until I saw this film. I knew He had been tortured but I had no idea just how bad the torture was until I could actually see it. This movie does that. It's hard to picture that with out some visual images. Nothing in my limited scope could imagine someone being beaten to that extent. Now when I read, "By His stripes we are healed," I have a better understanding of why that statement has such a profound meaning.

God's blessings to you always.